“Jesus is calling”
You’re empty inside, sad, feeling at a complete loss, all the while being unable to relax your muscles, calm your heartrate, and silence your mind into a peaceful state. Quite frankly you just feel frustrated over the whole thing. Frustrated that you know the obvious and blissful answer to your distress is Jesus.
You don’t understand why you’re at such a loss for direction and comfort even though you have the answer to your problems in bold letters staring you right in the face. You just cannot seem to get yourself to the place of satisfaction and fulfillment that you were just a few short weeks/months ago.
Feeling hopeless and at the lowest point possible, you collapse overcome by discouragement and tears. You cry out to your Almighty Maker wondering why you can’t get it right because you know what the answer is.
You’ve been slowly creating a mess in your life while being sure to harbor and hide the mistakes you have made because if anyone knew, they would label you things you know that you are not. But little have you understood that attempting to deal with your mess on your own weighs heavy and pulls you farther and farther away from your creator. From your loving and merciful Father who wants absolutely nothing more than to take all of your sinful burdens and cast them into the deepest, darkest depths of the sea so that no one ever has to see them.
You sin. You sin and you fall and you mess up.
Oh, but what a loving Father we have that longs for nothing more than us to bring our sin and mess to him. He sees the dark. He sees the sin we think we have hidden away from everyone. He sees it and he wants it. He wants us. He wants so much to take the sin we are keeping in our hearts and to throw it away in a place that no one is able to bring it back to us. He tells you that he loves you for and through your mess. He understands perfectly that we were formed from the dust, of this earth that he so meticulously crafted, and that it is utterly impossible for us to be perfect, sinless human beings. That is not how he created us. That is how God created Jesus.
He created us to love. To embody the fruits of the Holy Spirit (Galations 5:22-23) and preach to our brothers and sisters that He loves and cares. We are called above all to love one another and to love our Lord, God. How can we love one another in the way that God loves us if we are quick to judge? Quick to point fingers and belittle one another with any chance we get or with any mistake they make.
One story I find resonating with this message would be in John 8 when Jesus is called over by the angry men so eager to stone to death the woman caught in adultery. These men are so hopeful that Jesus will become like them in their own sinful nature that he would agree with their hateful actions. But instead my beautiful Jesus relays to them “let the one who has never sinned throw the first stone!” (verse 7). Which of course immediately strikes down the pride of the men forcing them all to walk away from the scene embarrassed. But that’s not even the best part! The Lord then turns to the woman in the street and asks her “Where are your accusers? Didn’t even one of them condemn you?” and with the obvious answer of “no” Jesus responds with “Neither do I, go and sin no more.” (verses 10-11) Jesus does not condemn, so what would ever give us the right to?
This is not to say I have never judged a brother or sister for a mess they have dealt with, but I am learning more and more what it is and means to love and not condemn, or put down those around me for the journey they are going through. I understand that the Lord our God is graceful and compassionate and overall loving. God is love. It sounds so simple to love but love is hard. Love is sacrifice and heartache and physical pain and selflessness. I so dearly desire to be like my Jesus and always show the ways of God to everyone around me, but man is that a challenge.
So hear me now, brothers and sisters, when I say this; Jesus loves you for and through your mess. He wants to rid you of the heavy burdens you bring upon yourself that force you into the dark and lonely areas away from Jesus. He wants you to bring your troubles and sins to Him so that you may be able to draw near to and dwell in His peaceful and comforting presence.
He loves you always and sees you with a value so much more than you could ever imagine.