My Style and Body Confidence Journey
When your asked what your style is, you do kinda think for a second and realize you may have been through a lot of phases that you thought were incredible at the time, but in reality it really wasn't...
I have always been your typical girly girl, long curly hair, obsessed with having nice nails and attempting to make my face appealing. However, I have always been quite fashion conscious and in the last few months I have realized how much your style changes as you grow older. I have started wearing things I would have never dreamt of before, and that is all down to having little body confidence and not wanting to draw attention to myself. The aim of this post is to inspire you to step out of your comfort zone and embrace different trends. As I am an ambassador for Boohoo, I want girls to have the confidence to explore their style and not worry what others think. (Something I have done far too much throughout my teenage years).
I don't have a lot of pictures from my younger years as I didn't really pose for pictures because I hated the way I looked so much. I still struggle a lot today to come to terms with my appearance, but please don't let how you feel stop you from wearing or doing certain stuff in your life. When I look back, I realize in photos where I thought I was vile, I'm not actually that bad. (I apologies about the quality of the photos, some are from Facebook and others Instagram and the quality changes when you enlarge them).
The first trend I remember going through was BLAZERS. I was obsessed with blazers and dresses and probably owned around 3. I don't think I would wear them now, doesn't really feel like me, but at the time I thought I was a fashion goddess and pretty much wore them religiously. I would have been around 14 in this picture and yeah didn't show my face until I was 17 in photos. (Don't do this).
I started getting into kimonos and long shirts around the age of 16, I was completely obsessed and still a dress girl. Didn't wear jeans until I was 18. I didn't like the idea of having a bum or curves, to this day I still don't understand why I had that mindset, so I liked to drown myself in clothes to not show my figure. I became obsessed with velvet kimonos and pretty much wore them everywhere. This photo was the FIRST photo I appeared in and actually smiled and looked at the camera (ignore the brows). I completely hated myself at this point but I said I would get in the photo to prove to myself I could do it. Here I am wearing DOUBLE velvet, don't think that’s a trend, but I became a lil obsessed with velvet.
At 17 I started becoming obsessed with beanies and pretty much every style of hat. The one I wore religiously and I mean I even got nicknamed 'bowler hat girl' was my true love, my bowler hat. I remember spending £20 and thinking to myself why did I just do that. I don't have the confidence to pull that off. But at 17 I started to accept myself more and began to care less what people thought of my style. I really wanted to wear this hat and I did it and people didn't say bad things. Its your mind that stops you from doing things.
At 17 I became obsessed with pinafores and the vintage look. So I started doing more charity shopping and spending money in vintage shops, buying oversized denim jackets. At this age I was also a little obsessed with denim, denim shorts, denim dresses but STILL not jeans at this point.
I feel like 18 was my break through year. I stopped caring what people thought. Got into university and my style switched up a lot. I feel like a lot of people may experience this, after being in the same area for so many years, you kinda feel like you can't change or be who you actually are because people already have labelled you. Going to University completely changed my outlook on myself and I've never felt better. This is when my jeans obsession started. It went from 1 pair of Topshop jeans to 5... in the space of 6 months.
I was always a dress girl and when I came to uni, I suddenly had the idea I wanted to wear skirts clubbing. So I purchased my first one from Missguided, got a lil obsessed and bought it in a different colour a week later. I started to accept that it was good to embrace different trends and to not feel self conscious.
I think this year has been the biggest switch up in my style. I have always liked the idea of wearing Bodycon dresses but every-time I wore one I felt 3 months pregnant or I stuck out or in, in weird places. I had no confidence to wear them. This summer I put a stop to it and bought my first maxi dress. It took me a while to have the confidence to go out in it, but I ended up loving it. I have now started wearing dresses more than anything else on a night out. I feel they make you look older, classy and just elegant. I even started to wear heels instead of boots, still not proper heels but for now I am coping.
I want you all to wear something that you wouldn't have the confidence to wear, just try it and if you hate it then fine at least you tried. But please learn to love your body and wear what the hell you want, don't care what people think of you, if anything they are jealous by commenting negatively.
I hope this post inspires some of you to take the plunge and realize that style and body confidence is a journey a lot of girls go through x
Remember if you ever need someone to talk to please just send me a message x